the pain from heart ache is starting to consume me, piece by piece. each breath is filled with guilt and remorse, with pain flooding my lungs. and my heart- it feels like a stone, pounding up against my chest. anxiety heavies my chest, and it hurts to breathe.

you know when you miss someone, you start to cramp up on the side of your ribs? and how when you try to relax, it just gets worse? and the back of your mind is constantly occupied by the one person you’re thinking about? each step, each move you take reminds you of them, no matter what you’re doing. the smell of the air, the taste of food, the feeling of summer directly leads back to the one person. and you feel sick to your stomach- the pain is physical.